Faith and Hope

It’s About to Get Real!

Warning: If you are a Male, you may not want to read this… unless you don’t care… But I warned you


It’s always a little scary putting out your thoughts, feelings, emotions and personal stuff out on the whole world wide web, but if there is a chance that it can help someone else, then I believe it is all worth it!

That’s one of the reasons I started this blog, to encourage, inspire and give hope to anyone who needs it.

Well, here we go! It’s time to get real.

I’m just going to come on out and say it. I have PCOS. Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. What a long name huh? Basically, what this means is my body just doesn’t work properly. At all. As a woman, the messages inside that my body sends to all the departments just get jumbled up and miss-communicated. It’s like going to the DMV on a busy day. Nothing gets the done the way it’s supposed to and it usually always end up in tears.

It’s starts off with a hormone imbalance. My body doesn’t produce enough of the right hormones which means, I don’t ovulate normally, I can’t process sugars correctly, my body produces insulin but doesn’t use it (what a waste right?), my body loves to hold onto weight (it’s separation anxiety at it’s worst) and a whole bunch of other awkward and un-fun things. It is just a huge bummer! The biggest downside and most down heartening side effect is infertility. Boom. There it is.

The problem with PCOS is there is no gauge. Not everyone with PCOS looks the same, has the same symptoms, and it can be easily misdiagnosed. It took several years before a doctor found out what was wrong. I was diagnosed with several different things and at one time was taking up to 30 pills a day. You should have seen my pill box; it was massive! No one even really knows what causes PCOS and it can be so frustrating.

Most of the symptoms are just superficial at best, but can be hard as a woman to deal with. For me, it is the looming possibility of being infertile. While you can’t cure PCOS, you can treat it. The best way to describe PCOS to others for me is telling them my body acts like it has Type 2 Diabetes, just with some added bumps a long the way.

But here is the good news. I am not alone, nor do I need to fear the future. If you had asked me a couple of years ago if I would be able to cope with this news, I probably would have said no. But here’s where things changed down the road. I realized I am not alone in this. PCOS is actually very common; a lot of women have PCOS (I think it’s about 30 % of all women) and are huge supporters of each other. While this diagnosis is hard to swallow, it is not the end of the world. There are several ways to overcome PCOS, medication, diet, exercise, and eating hormone free food.

And most of all, I have faith. I believe that God will work in whatever His will is. While it is hard for me to grasp at the possibility of being infertile, I know that if we are meant to have children we will. We will try our hardest (wink, wink) and if we have to, we will do IVF but I am also prepared to let God be the decider. After all, I am totally ok with adoption because, well you can read all about that here. And I know that if I need to talk to someone about infertility, I will have the best mentor, my mom.

So my sweet friends, if you have PCOS or know someone else who does, you/they are no alone! It doesn’t have to be so scary and if you ever need to chat, I got your back! I will even bring the tissues, cause girl, we’re gonna cry it out! (Did I mention that being extremely emotional was a side effect? Sorry I’m no sorry about always crying during Hallmark commercials).


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  1. Reply
    August 3, 2013 at 6:44 pm

    I love love love the way you said you tell you people your body “acts like it has type 2 diabetes.” I never know how to approach that! It is so crazy to read nearly my exact same story from someone else’s (much more positive) perspective. After 2 years of infertility I really need to find a way to stay hopeful and positive. Thanks for writing about it!

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      emilie marian
      August 3, 2013 at 6:53 pm

      Alexandra! Thank you for your sweet words and for stopping by! I’m so glad that my post reached out to you and helped in some small way. That has been my goal. I’m so sorry to hear about your struggle these past two years but you my friend are not a lone! I will be praying for you dear and if you ever need to chat, let me know! We PCOS girls got to stick together and love on each other because this is no easy road.

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    August 3, 2013 at 7:02 pm

    You are so sweet. Thank you so much! I’m not even sure how I stumbled upon this post but I’m so glad I did. You are definitely right, it is no easy road. The hardest part for me is just not knowing the future. Just as you said, I know I’ll be a mom, and I don’t care how, I am just too impatient 🙂

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      emilie marian
      August 3, 2013 at 7:20 pm

      Well I am so glad you found me! Check out some of the other posts. There are lots of DIYs, Interior Design tips and more. As for the future, it is just that. You will be a mom! I guarantee it!

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