Faith and Hope

i stand here

i stand here

Oh sweet friend, thank you for meeting me here again and for reading my heart. It’s never easy to spill yourself all over the internet especially if you are about to get vulnerable. Hold on tight, because I am about to share some pretty deep stuff.

Well maybe not deep but definitely stuff that I haven’t shared with most but I feel like this journey that I have been on for the past 2-3 years is not just my story to tell. In fact, in the past couple of months I have seen the ripples of what God has done for me and it would be irresponsible if I didn’t share my heart with you. I’m looking at you girl friend who may just not realize what your potential is… what amazing golden potential that God has placed in you.

So, guys, here we go. I’m going to let you in on a secret of mine. I am an insecure, frightened nobody. I didn’t excel at sports or school. I wasn’t popular, I didn’t have tons of friends, in fact, in middle school girl’s didn’t talk to me almost the first month of 7th grade because I didn’t wear the “cool” clothes. I was teased, I wasn’t pretty, I had frizzy blond hair and acne and my last name was Short. Guys, I was 5 feet and my last name was SHORT.

Can I just say how thankful I am that God’s grace covers us from day 1? I just so desperately wanted to be liked and to fit in. I wanted the perfect bangs and the Bath and Bodyworks sprays that everyone else seemed to have. I struggled with knowing and believing that was I was fearfully and wonderfully made. STRUGGLED. And I STILL struggle with this. Even in my 30’s I still find myself second guessing why God made me, and what my purpose is but…

This post isn’t really about that. What I want I want to write about is that God gave you a dream, a purpose, and a place in his kingdom. Even the awkward girls. The girl who didn’t discover what a hair straightener was till way too late.

I want to share that if you have a dream in your heart, it isn’t there by accident. God put it there. He saw you for who you were made to be. You aren’t defined by who you were, or what you look like, or how tall you are. It took me years to figure this out, an embarrassing amount of years and if I can help you figure this out than my heart is full.

I have had many people in the last couple of months tell me how amazing it is to see me live my dreams, to go for it and start my own business. I smile, and say thank you, but what I really want to say, you can do this too. I am not special. In my head, I am still the scared 7th grader with bad skin on photo day. But what I do have is the confidence that when God plants a dream, he will be faithful. So faithful.

It has not been easy. I have had to learn, read, stay up late, miss family things, teach myself, spend hours in my accountants office, ask questions, ask for forgiveness, cry, not shower, neglect my house, and pray. But what I have seen happen is the divine hand of God whispering and calling out the scared girl in me and bringing forth a woman I didn’t even I know I could be. If you are reading this and you don’t feel like this could be you… stop, take a deep breath, and just whisper His name. God created you for a purpose and if you let him begin to show you what that is, you will be blown away.

And if you need more encouragement call me. I will speak the truth into your spirit, and if you just don’t know where to begin, we will figure it out together. But the first thing I want you to do is read the lyrics to the song below. Print them out, read them, listen to the song. Let the Holy Spirit breath life into you. Sweet friend, you can do this. Whatever it is. You can do it.

 

I Stand Here- Hannah Kerr

My desperate feet
Come running to You, from shaky ground
Facing defeat
I am holding onto, Your promise now

Raise me up on eagle’s wings
Give my soul Your bigger dreams
Breathe Your life into me
A battle cry is in my lungs
Singing out “Your kingdom come”
Fall in us, pour out Your love

I stand here, at Your feet
I’m laying down, the fear in me
And as Your child, claiming peace
Oh give this heart, Your victory
I stand here, I stand here

My weary bones
They come alive with, the sound of You
Restoring hope
In my anxious spirit, forever new

Raise me up on eagle’s wings
Give my soul Your bigger dreams
Breathe Your life into me
A battle cry is in my lungs
Singing out “Your kingdom come”
Fall in us, pour out Your love

I stand here, at Your feet
I’m laying down, the fear in me
And as Your child, claiming peace
Oh give this heart, Your victory
I stand here, I stand here

Away from brokenness
Into your promises, Lord
I’m standing, I’m standing here
Away from brokenness
Into your promises, Lord
I’m standing, I’m standing here

 

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4 Comment

  1. Reply
    Jamie
    October 9, 2017 at 7:24 pm

    Girl, this was me all through school too! I still struggle with all the feeling of purpose. Thanks for your words of encouragement.

    1. Reply
      emilie marian
      October 10, 2017 at 12:20 am

      Thank you for your friendship. I hope you know you’re so talented and I hope that you pursue it more :)! Love you!

  2. Reply
    Fawn
    October 10, 2017 at 10:25 am

    Em! This was beautiful and speaks to so many. Thanks for sharing your heart my beautiful treasured friend who I adore so much! So thankful Jesus put us together. Love you!

  3. Reply
    JPizzle
    October 10, 2017 at 11:59 pm

    Oh my goodness, you beautiful queen, I love this most of anything you’ve ever written, and what a rushing breath it gave me. I love you and burst with pride at being your friend.❤ Also is it weird that I feel like I want to fight anyone who was mean to you ever, even if they were in 7th grade?

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